Self-Reflection and Sociai Inspection

 Atomic Habits has turned me into a fucking chameleon. It has gotten me out of the idea of thinking that I should be just one version of myself. And no that doesn't mean in terms of changing faces and being a fake motherfucker. I mean a chameleon in terms of making rapid and frequent changes to how I interact with other people and live my life. 

That chameleon metaphor doesn't really even make sense now that I think of it, but whatever...

One thing that I've always understood (and that Atomic Habits has reinforced) is that all of us think, act, and share the same goals as the people around us.

And ho, boy! In defining myself, I had to look around myself and ask whether the people I had around me reflected whom I wanted to become. And the answer was no. And the answer is still no.

But the problem here is that I've made ties and built relationships. I'm not at all opposed to cutting things off with broken people. In fact, in the interest of keeping myself sane, and saving time, I have to walk away from relationships with broken people. This is one of the biggest points of No More Mr. Nice Guy (A book I spent most of last year reading.) 

But I also have to question whether I'm just projecting my own insane flaws onto other people because I don't want anyone getting close to me.

I guess we'll have to see in the future...

 Walking away from relationships does not feel good. It's not impossible to do. But ending relationships (at least in my experience) feels the same as losing a family member. Regardless. I'm only dedicated to two men. Myself and the one above. Everyone else can be lost and fall to the wayside. 

I believe that I have abundant time and energy, but if I don't walk away from the broken people around me, I'll have to balance it with being around people that are where I want to be. And that's going to require me to meet alot more people. Which isn't an issue. I guess I'll use the law of 33%. 

I can't even remember who the hell I learned this from, but basically, it states that you spend 33% of your time with people you want to learn from, 33% of your time with people on the same level as you, and 33% of your time with people that you have to lead.

I honestly think I may have learned that shit from Tai Lopez. Which means that it's probably some pseudo-intellectual bullshit...

I need to go figure out who said that shit before I implement it.

Fuck Tai Lopez.